When I truly started Masturbating

This is a serious issue that popped into my mind.

Ever since I have been warded to imh ward, I have to masturbate extreme exhaustion away from long time masturbation didn't. I simply have to take the six month break or i rather commit sucide, total i would have committed sucide 6 times since last year. I have become impotent from not masturbating - don't know why until linplaza.com which explains that my brain chemicals is not functioning well.

If i can't masturbate by myself I have to watch pornography. I have seen a psychologist about it since it popped into my mind and this has been discussed as i can't tolerate masturbation.

My exhaustion level has maximised due to haven't.
After I did not that long ago, my fungus infection on my feet went away from my whole body and I think i have one in my brain which also went away.

This is either due to medication or chemtrails (which distorted my appearance to less than a cockroach in the ward, how could it be fats?).